I’ve been battling with distractions the past few months.
One is scrolling down social media after work and then berating myself for not spending enough time in prayer or the Word before going to bed. Whilst going down this rabbit hole I saw the wonderful lives everyone is leading and that feeling of not being good enough become bigger and bigger bringing me to a complete standstill.
I stopped being creative as there was no way I could beat what everyone was doing and there was absolutely no way that I could be looking that great on Instagram! Yes, I was comparing myself to others.
I became less consistent with my own creative projects and soon started feeling guilty and small. I was wondering why am I not writing, why am I not producing, and then I asked myself the question – “Are you doing what you are doing to be seen by others or for others to see Him through you?”
When one flows naturally within your gifting and your own voice it feels good as it feels like you. There is only one me and there is only one you. Uniquely created by God. It made me celebrate the works of others again, cheering them on. Bit by bit I felt my Joy being restored and decided I am dealing with a lot in my life at present with all the distractions in the world but now is not the time to give the enemy a foothold in my mind as the battle is truly in the mind.
I now truly understand what it means when they say “Comparison is the thief of all Joy”. The enemy comes to kill and destroy BUT God comes to give life and life in abundance. Time to enjoy it again.
#steppingoutwithell #steppingoutinfaith
