Write for the One.
Shame said “you wrote a book but you’ve done nothing about it”. Fear asked”but who would want to read it”. Then I heard the following words on waking. “Write for the one.”
Fruits
It has been a challenging 7 years for me character wise. Losing everything has given me a complete new perspective on life, as to what truly matters and that healing from that which no longer serves us and character refining, takes time.
October – Endings and Beginnings
I packed the few belongings I had in boxes and bags, left an unhealthy environment and a pattern of returning to people and situations that belong in my past. I had 30 min before a pandemic curfew to reach my new destination. A lovely house where strangers soon became family.
“The Battle was in my Mind.”
Ive been battling with distractions the past few months.
One being scrolling down social media after work and then berating myself for not spending enough time in prayer or the Word before going to bed. Whilst going down this rabbit hole I saw the wonderful lives everyone is leading and that feeling of not being good enough become bigger and bigger bringing me to a complete standstill.
“Not everyone is meant to sit with you at your table.”
Someone once told me I overshare. This was 7 years ago. I recall listening but not responding as I wanted to sit with it later in the day. The conversation was around me sitting with people and sharing my ideas, dreams and visions with them openly. I thought by being open that I was being authentic.
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What should I do?
Now on my growth journey I stop and ask myself before I want to call a friend – are you giving preference to God’s Word and voice as much as you give to those of others. Am I seeking Him as much as I seek the counsel and guidance of others?
“I was Rejected”
Something prompted me to check the privacy settings on my Facebook page. It showed me that I blocked 18 people and one name stood out. I could not remember blocking him. But there he was smiling holding on to a lovely woman smiling. They looked happy. For one fleeting moment I felt a tinge of sadness- \”why did he not choose me\”..and then I remembered.
New Vision – The story of the Broken Spectacles.
We don’t see ourselves correctly due to what others perhaps might have said about us with their own impaired sight and as we embrace this limited vision and perception of others we cant see ourselves nor others correctly. It is when we constantly judge others and we focus on “what is wrong with them, what they did or are doing to us that we remain in the place of blameville, shameville, victimville and stuckville.
Who Am I Now?
Once again the question arose: Who are you now? For me, the answer is in “the in-between years”. In the transforming journey to now. It is truly in the mess that you receive the new message. Your New Story. The Truth.
Stepping out of the Fog.
It was when I realized who God is in me that I stopped fearing. Once my fear evaporated and turned back into Faith, the fog lifted and I started seeing clearer.